Sunday, November 29, 2009

Details of Koi from Above

For the full Original Finger Painting of Koi from Above, please visit my gallery.






For the full Original Finger Painting of Koi from Above, please visit my gallery.


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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Yes

I had a successful conversation with Bachelor #1.

Happy, happy. Joy, joy.


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Monday, November 23, 2009

Sneakier preview! Koi, blue

Well, I finally got down to (undisturbed) business and moved this commission forward. After this next stage dries, I'll be checking for things to touch up, colors to deepen, etc.

I miss painting more regularly.

One of the things I enjoy about painting is that I can listen to things while I work--such as stand up comedy, music, a favorite movie, a friend on the phone, silence, etc.

When I'm writing, I need wordlessness. Music without lyrics.

It's a different kind of meaning creation.

I'm tired. I am looking forward to a conversation I will have tomorrow.

Good night!


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Sunday, November 22, 2009

I need a laugh.



This ain't work safe, so use your headphones or wait until you get home to play this!

Invite Beauty,

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

Endings schmendings


Call of Nature, oil on canvas, 18" x 36"
Finger painted

You know, all that sad talk about ending it with Bachelor #1 is really about confirming my doubts and fears. Haven't I learned anything from the Daily Successes? What about confirming my hopes and courage?

I'm going to break another pattern.

Y'all wish me luck now. Seriously.

Invite Beauty (no RSVP required!),

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Finished (for now)

I finished the final episode of Battlestar Galactica this morning, before I went to my field placement.

The funny thing is, I had seen it already. I've also seen the last episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

I'm dark that way (this is a reference to When Harry Met Sally). It's interesting to start from the end, then go to the beginning, and see how things got to where they got.

I also finished dating Bachelor #1.

I'm sad and craving KFC and chocolate. That said, I had a feeling about the ending of this one, too. Perhaps a little bit of self-fulfilling prophecy, a little bit of hypervigilance, with a pinch of intuition and training in human behavior, eh? I learned more about myself and more patterns that needed breaking and adjusting.

I'm still sad, despite the insight. I still yearn.

I finished Eclipse, the third book in the Twilight Series, in between studying, work, heartbreak, and a little vacation with friends.

On my vacation, I walked on a beach strewn with shells and stones that were washed smooth by the sea. They dotted the sand like randomly written notes of music.

I couldn't understand how they were so beautiful. How this was just free for the enjoying.

Beauty is not understood, it is felt.

Like the mysteries of the heart.


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Friday, November 06, 2009

Breaking patterns

Hey there!

It's been a while, or it feels like it's been a while. I've been busy and it's been a good busy.

I've got to get back to this good busy, but I thought I'd drop a note to share what's up.

1. The Daily Successes project

I don't know how many of you followed the transition of the Daily Successes posts to my Twitter account, but I finally stopped it a few weeks ago. I had originally intended on doing it for about a month, so I'm happy that I did it for much longer publicly. I still exchange Daily Successes with my mom (she insisted and I'm glad!), and it's nice to search for the positive, every day, in our lives. Trust me, it's a challenge, but considering how good I am at finding the negative and not-so-hot in my life, I knew I could meet the challenge of finding Daily Successes and...be successful at it!

2. Change happens

Part of the effect of doing Daily Successes is that I became more focused on the glass of life being half-full of refreshing iced tea. The truth is that the glass is both empty and full--so if both are true, which one would I like to pick? The caffeinated choice for sure! Focusing on Daily Successes jazzed me up and inspired me to get out of my own way so I could grow.


Just this last week, I broke three habits: I got dressed up for
Halloween (haven't done that since I was 10?) which involved putting together an outfit (I was a punk vampire; sorry for the bad phone camera pic), I went to a late-night party even though I would usually say "forget it" and go to bed, and lastly, I went to a party with new friends instead of getting all shy and staying home. Yay, me!

3. Bachelor #1...

I've been on two dates with someone who isn't my "usual suspect" and it's extremely refreshing. Learning to focus on my feelings through the work I've been doing in psychotherapy has helped a lot. I'm glad I met this person last week, because if it had been last month or earlier, I don't think this would be the opportunity and sweet adventure that it is right now. (I know, I need more psychotherapy!)


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